- Translated from True Buddha News Who is
- Written by: Living Buddha Lian-Sheng, Sheng-yen
- Translated by: Tina
- Edited by: May Kwan
- Proofread by: Mimosa
While studying Buddhism, I often ponder on Who am I.
Sheng-yen Lu is only a name, a symbol just like A, B, C, D. Living
Buddha Lian-Sheng is only a title like E, F, G, H. I examine my
face closely but it was nothing other than an ever-changing visage.
And my body is just a layer of skin.
My Guru preached a great deal on the subject of Four Elements:
- Earth hard and soft characteristics
- Water assimilation characteristics
- Fire cold and hot characteristics
- Wind movement characteristics
Based on the above teaching: bone is earth, blood is water, body
temperature is fire, and breathing is wind
So I ask myself again, Who am I exactly?
When I study mediation, I raise the same question. Among the "Four
Elements (earth, water, fire and wind), wind is the easiest
and most obvious element to pursue. I start with observing my own
breathing. The idea is quite simple: Life is between inhaling and
exhaling. If breathing could not continue, so would our lives. Life
ceases; Sheng-yen Lu ends. Living Buddha Lian-sheng ends. Four Elements
will naturally dissipate, and the physical body will be corrupted.
Who am I?
Who is Who?
Guru elucidated that the ultimate goal of meditative observation
is not merely to perceive the Four Elements", but the
detailed observation of spirit. A tough task! Observing the spirit
and mind requires more effort. Is spirit me? Is thought
me? I set forth on my search once again on the thought.
Thought of Body: Concentrate, particularly on the process
of inhaling and exhaling and the phenomenon of appearance and
Thought of Emotions: Concentrate, particularly on the
starting and ending of various emotions. Recognize happiness,
unhappiness, and unhappiness but not real unhappiness.
Thought of Mind: Recognize the rising and falling of
myriad of thoughts, determining the real thought.
Thought of Dharma: Clearly understand the formation
and destruction of all activities of dharma in our daily lives.
Concentrate and recognize the Truth of Dharma but do not attach
My conclusion is: body is illusory, emotion is illusory, and so
is the mind and dharma. None of them constitute true entity.
Who am I?
Who is Who?
In the "Four Concentrative Minds Sutra", Lord Buddha
"Reverends, there is a path which leads laymen to purification,
overcome anguish and alleviate grief. Lead them to practice the
right actions and attain nirvana. The path is called Four
Lord Buddha further teaches:
"Practice diligently and observe discretely on the thought
of body, emotion, mind and dharma. Licentious desire and suffering
will then be eliminated."
When I observe all these, I understood: my body is not mine, environment
is impermanent, the existence of emotion is sad, and everything
is empty. My wisdom gradually matures. I no longer attach to the
physical me or the spiritual me, which is
the realization of Nirvana, Great Bliss, Illumination, and Emptiness.